can i write a letter not

big huge thank you goes out to rae,with out you today i would have been lost . the letter has been sent and hope to hear something early jan. well thars about it.enuff said

Well a deep dark ah what ever!

Well had a great time with Rae at the costco sat and talked for about an hour or more sorry Rae I am a chatty Cathy sometimes well all the time.i have to make up for all the time I spend alone at work.here I am writing on a sat afternoon doing laundry playing comp games getting a ranking from general boredom to major boredom had two dates this week both said they were to cold to put out, gotta get some gloves!LOL at myself? Why is it that when I go to walmart I see a lot of mothers with kids but no fathers with them and a lot are interracial? enuff said

monkey shit

that's what i remember when i was 8 years old going to the zoo and the monkey's were behind glass lucky for us and they would throw there shit at the window and they seemed to enjoy golden showers from each other. just and mermory i just should of got out of my system a long time ago.enuff said

Time passes

If you could have time passes wouldn't that be great! Like a pass to skip certain things that you have to attend but really wish you could get out of it.looking for the passion to get my life together and do something remarkable.Yes remarkable I think everyone has the ability to, but some of us just can't harness the power!Christmas has never been the same since I was 10 but you know things will never be that simple again.waiting to get up in the morning we would start to ask if we could come down at about 3am then every half an hour until we were allowed to come down. the presents the treats socking stuffers and we always had farmers sausage for breakfast. we started a new tradition a few years back where all my bro's and sis's meet at a diner that stays open every day its a truckstop so it doesn't every close.we talk abit visit and eat and then off to our own family get together.i think thats as good as its going to be . rant bitch whine enuff said

well what's up

tuesday is for sleep can't wait have to do some gorcery shop and then hit the hey. not much going on in my world . oh ya places i would like to live . 1 canada because thats where i live now.2 costa rica was there on vacation once and liked the laid back way of life.3 u.k. just like the accents.4u.s.a. because you can travel between hot and cold in the winter months.5.anywhere for free.6 new zealandor australia that my 6 places how about yours. enuff said

And the band played on ball of confusion,ball of confusion

Weekends sometime just mix me up I wake up wondering what day it is and when am I going to work I am bored don't feel like doing anything about. Sometimes home is just the right place to be. TV phones whats that about r we that addicted to tv that we have to watch tv on our phone.grab a book read you get so much more out of a book .I know as they say on Springer go to Oprah!If you had one choice to go somewhere in the world to live where would it be? As for xmas dinners when or where and if it is on a Monday that's a no for sure I think I will look into my lion time in the new year and make a final decision on it then .enuff said

wednesday

well another week is half over not much new going on thats why i haven't been puttin stuff in . enuff said

thursday last shift of the week

well another week of work done i seem to like this 4 on 4 off time flys haven't got much sleep this week with halloween and i've been doing some shopping for my mother bought her a stairlift today so she can go out of the house when she wants that will be great for her .nothing else is new no problems to bitch about .hope all is well !enuff said

hallow eves

when i was young the nite before trick or treat was called hell night and there was soaping of windows ,toilet paper houses,egg throws and tomatoes thrown. this has gone by the way side which is a good thing but it used to be a big night.it seems funny that know one does that anymore even in the times we have.all is good in my world i am just putting in my time .i should have gone to help at a dance on the weekend but just couldn't bring myself to do it i have trouble saying no when i get in that type of thing and pay for it the next day and can't do my job as good as i should and when you work with people that need your help just to survive you can't let them down.i hope everything went o.k. enuff said

friday oh friday

well another day has passed by went to do some banking today oh no i forgot it was near the end of the month and all the peoples that wait for there cheques from the gov go to the bank to cash out u no beer is on sale and taxi cabs must be to.cabs must clean up at this time of the month!u know bugs me the most is you're standing in line with a whole bunch of people and someone lets a sbd go u look around trying to figure out who's ass is talking and has very bad breath and then u think if i'm wondering probally every one else in line is also wondering eccept the ass who is letting us know what they have had to eat lately.my big problem is the crowd looks at the fat guy(me) and thinks that pig and its probally the stickman 4 up in the row? they should have alarms or something like that that points to the dealer of such good charms.just another gassly adventure.enuff said

get a grip

i think i talked about this before but yet again it has happened! maybe its me i must bring out the best or should i say the beast in people? i was over at a friends last weekend and in a joking matter i said you're a freak this is a common term that i use but i was told oh boy was i told i felt like a 5 year old that had just broke dad's favourite beer glass! i did say i was sorry but think it was heard thru ears that were painted on so this friend that by the way i have spent tons of time with might be on the outs.i think there was maybe a deeper rooted problem with us and my comment just gave a window for her to vent on me? well that was fridaynite but i didn't hear about it until tuesday.sat nite i had dinner withan old friend what a great time we had thai food and it kicks ass .its been seven years since i've seen my friend and she has not aged abit wow! enuff said

sat 22

well its raining out here in dullsville but had a great night hanging out with my friends and my god daughter and her little bro.kids are great to visit with and the nice thing is being able to go home at the end of the night and not have to worry bout them!got a phone call from a friend that is back home for the weekend and wants to go out for dinner tonight maybe a few drinks that should be great we always had a good time and i havn't seen her in seven years.well thats it enuff said

sat day

well here i am writing in thisw blog on a saturday afternoon.is there things i should be doing yes.will i do them doesn't look like! why who knows just don't feel like it .read email read blog play games watch tv is this what my life has came to? need to get out and do something but just don't feel like it .need to get a boost of nrg .just thought i'd post enuff said.

deep thinking ya right

well its been three years since my marriage fell apart . first year (bitter) year two (better) year three (wonder) when i first was seperated all my friends stood by me . now the tide has turned not all bad some friends are still with me but its not a with me or not thing going on.everyone has alot going on and i understand that forsure.

the mind was mixed
we said we loved each other
living together was a different thing
missing you i will
talking to you i yearn
the hurt was deep
time well spent then lost in time

you took my heart
you made me young
you were my everything
i learned to love you
i learned to care
the hurt was deep
time well spent then lost in time


must move on
must learn to trust
forgive and forget
life to short to carry hate
i do forgive and will move on
the hurt was deep
time well spent then lost in time




enuff said

sept

well this is the first post in awhile hope everthing is good i'm great nothing new working lots know i'm full time but the money doesn't hurt ! hope to plan a real get away soon maybe in feb go somewhere hot depends on the home front.car is almost paid for can't wait for that to stop .enuff said

friday

well raining out boring nite can't wait until wed next week that's the first day i have off andi have 12 days off .lots to do around the house and have got to see some people i haven't seen for awhile maybe have a ice cap or two?miss you all . hope everyone is good and stable if that's not to boring.nothing new enuff said.

well thursday

i'm getting the feeling back in my heart to be nice to all the people of the world even the ones that have pissed me off in the past.i have a ? does the world revolve around you or do you involve your self in the world that is the question. i'm all about people taking care of themself first but everyone must remember that we are all the same kind that is humankind . you can pick your nose and you can pick or ass but you can't pick your family .why is it that siblings can be assholes? well thats a can of worms i just don't want to open right now . enuff said

been a awhile

well what can i say it has been along time since my last posting. i have been busy and not feeling in the blogger mood.my friend from b.c. is gone home and the girl that i hooked up with at the car dealer has moved on with her life while i was hanging with the girl from out west. but that is all good .i have been thinking alot about life and where it leads you. i would still like to spend a good night with a certain hot bbw that i know i have wanted to f**k her since i met her about 3 years ago . i think she is so sexy .she really turns me on with her long hair great boobs and a great personality she doesn't know how special she really is .her man is a great guy and i think one lucky son of a gun to have someone that wild and sexy .i know it sounds like i am worshiping her but i'm not i just think she doesn't realize how much she turns people on.well all i can say is i would like to take her away for a weekend and just have fun its all would want because i do respect her man and her family and of course i do respect her but that doesn't mean i don't want to do her like i said i have had it bad for her since i met her .enuff said

april showers

well its my birth day i'm just finnishing my week of work i'm working 3 days next week plus i've got to keep up with my social life i have put my autoshop girl on hold for alittle while she was ok with that she didn't want anything to serious and i was all for letting things slide abit because my b.c. friend is keeping me fairly busy but she is going home in a couple of weeks.next week we are going to the falls for a nite booked a great suite with lots of room for enjoyment with a whirlpool for two in the room.oh i'm looking forward to that!enuff said

thursday

well i can't remember a time that i was so busy with two women on the go .i'm almost beat i'm out with with one last monday nite got home at 4.am.tues day i'm out with the other until 1am life is good my b.c. friend is going home in about two weeks so then my life will slow down abit i hope(not) anyway things are very good on both fronts its just juggling between the two that get tiring .i could not wish for any more.enuff said!

friday

well it's friday or sat i've been on 14 days agian and this is my last nite . got my car fixed on wed cost me 560.00 but its much better now.well here i was sitting waiting for my car to be fixed and i started talking to this woman that was also getting her car fixed .her car was done fast and she asked me if i wanted to go for a coffee.i asked how long my car was going to be and the shop said they needed at least one and a half hours.so off we go for coffee.to make a long story short she went to the drive thru i didn't ask but to my suprize we went to her house . nice place we started talking about relationships and what we each have been thru next thing you know we were fooling around like i never would have even thought about.this girl was pretty hot long dark hair good body dark brown eyes . i went thru a dry spell last year and now have been with 2 different women in the last two weeks and i'm going out on sat/nite with my b.c. friend and have another date planned for the auto shop girl next week. she called me and wants a repeat of the other day wo who!!!!enuff said

sunken treasure

well its the middle of march i'm working way too much because by co/worker has gone off for 2 months i have to fill in for her alot .we do have some back up but only a few shifts are going to be covered. i just want my seven on seven off back.well i'll just have to do what i gotta do.sometimes it seems like every one is pulling at me and i just don't have the time to get anything done .i know i have a very boring blog but somethings i just can't put down yet . think positive .enuff said

thursday nite

just a short note to say hey and thats it.enuff said

been awhile

well i haven't wrote in here for sometime .i've been busy doing this and that.some comments in this blog are not directed at anyone but are just me spuuing about how i feel that day. i do have alot of respect for of you who read my blog and you know who you (r) i have had some good times lately my friend from out west is back from her 4 months in europe and is staying around here for a couple of months. i've been out with her a couple of times had a great times i really have been enjoying the wine these days. my friend got me to try a red wine that was great i think it was the best red i've had.it's from the land downunder yellow tail it was called.if you haven't tried it i would recommend it .also just to put everyones mind at ease. i don't need to have anybody do things they don't want to do .i am doing much better now ! i still think you are a great person and i hope everything you are seaching for comes to you . even if you think you don't desevre it you do. you have made a difference in my life and i have only know you a couple of years . enuff said.

thrusday surviror begins

yes i am a reality tv junky i like it the best because you don't see repeats over and over it's on once and then you half to buy it on dvd if i want to watch it.why is it that people ask questions that they know the answer to already?i do it myself .if we know the answer then why the hell do we take the time to think about.just do it(thanks nike) how about just screw it!if a girl goes out and wants to get laid she will get it because no matter want she looks like there will always be some guy that will do her.but on the other hand if a guy goes out for the same thing he's only going to get it if timing right or if he's prefect G.Q.man.those guys are lucky dog winners and the rest of us are lucky dog whinners.enuff said

wed nes day hump day

so i just can't seem to get things going the right way .i must decide if i'm going to stay with this job or move on to another occupation?or should i go back to school and do somthing different? i know one thing for sure i have to take time for myself and take off alot of weight.i have been trying to have gastric bypass surgery but 17000.00 u.s. dollars is alittle out of my price range and i think i should give my body another kick at losing it slowly and keeping it off.it's time to do it for me i want to feel better about myself and feel i can do anything if i put my mind to it .i am big buck.enuff said

what the f***

that's right what's up with that ? people get ready there's a change a coming.nice is just a four letter word and when do you stop being nice to people that don't give a rats ass bout you other then if they need something from you . i may be a person that can take alot of crap from people i have been thru the ringer a few times.i try to think of others before myself but that doesn't mean i'm a push over .i can say i do have lots of friends some that i have known since grade school which was a long time ago.they genrally keep in touch with me some have families of there own so i understand that it's harder to keep going but between them and myself we keep involed in each others happenings.i listen to people when they have problems and they listen back cause god knows i to have many problems(whine) . but believe me i am not asking for a pity party! i bite my tougue alot just so i don't hurt peoples feelings but that doesn't get you any where fast so i just have to look at live different .i have to tell people like it is and let the cards fall where they may so i hope you're ready for some good reading cause in the next few weeks i'm going to give it out like i get it .enuff said

thursday morn

well i had the longest day wed i had 8hrs of boring first aid training i've only done the training about 10 times and it does get alittle old after awhile!the class started at 9am and i was looking at the clock at 940am so you can tell it was a long day.there was a couple of hotties in the group but much to young i bet .at least it was worth the view.anyway i have to take the course for my job.i also get paid to take it so all in all it wasn't that bad.enuff said

what to do

i hate virisis why are they put in place do some people have nothing better to do then f with other people they don't even know.that's my bitch i say if you create a problem like that you should get life in prison.what a day i've had still have jet lag from working nights and then trying to convert back to normal sleep pattern.why won't my head stop pounding?must sleep at nite not during the day but a nap sounds so good.enuff said

sat night

well here i am again the last night can't wait until 8a.m. what to do with my time off?sleep is high on the list relax is up there.well when do you decide what you want to write in here you never no who might find it .nothing to heavy thats why its called nitelights.have you ever wondered what purpose you are here for if everyone has a purpose or is there only some of us who have this goal.it doesn't have to be some life changing or save the world mode it can be simple . i haven't found mine yet as far as i know.but maybe i have done it already and didn't know it .maybe mine was to make someone elses goals?hopefully it wasn't somebody that was mean in the past that would really suck! well enuff.

last long shift

well the last of my long shifts 12hrs two 8 's and off for 14 days i hope.it's been a long 14 days.sleep is all you do when you work nights thats the secret to keep from falling asleep.feb 4 don't know what the daylight will bring looks like it will be a great day here in this part of the world.it's not snowing and that's a plus for sure.well not much to say today so i won't say anything!

shadow or not

well today was groundhog day just a reason for people to try to predict when winter will be over! just let it happen time flys if you don't keep every day on your mind.by the way when does tall start and short stop ? i think for a guy 5'6" is the short stop but tall doesn't start until 6'and for the ladies 5'2" is the short stop and tall starts 5'8" so what do you call the space between short and tall? i think it is shtall (shit all) don't worry i myself am in the shtall zone i always wanted to be 6' but genes and gavity have a way of working against you.

this is the first post ! nite light what can you do when you work nights and you're by your self other than the boring info on tv.checking in every hour with as what i like to call big brother thats for them to know if i'm staying awake or not.enuff bout that i'm just going to give you the raw goods.jello makes the world go round cherry sugar-free loven-it.when does tall start and short stop?if you're in between are you a shtall (shit-all) well i'm a shtall i have lots of friends both tall and short and some like me are shtalls. what are you?